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Mother Mary,
May 18, 2007.
My beloved hearts, there
truly is no greater joy for your spiritual mother than to experience
her children sharing their heart flames in an environment where everyone
is accepted for their uniqueness.* For my beloved, if there was one
message that I would want to get across to all humankind, it is precisely
this: In heaven everyone is unconditionally accepted for who they
are. For in heaven we see only the uniqueness of your individuality
in God, the individuality for which you were created, and the individuality
that you yourself has co-created in oneness with the Christ flame
in your heart.
My beloved, this unconditional acceptance, could literally solve all
of the world’s problems and remove all of the world’s
conflicts—if, of course, it could be accepted unconditionally
by the people of the world. And here precisely is the problem. For
so many people in the world have been conditioned to think that there
must always be conditions.
Your conditions keep you outside the kingdom of God
Do you see, my beloved, it is precisely the conditions that prevent
you from experiencing the kingdom that is within you. For you think
that you are separated from that inner kingdom. And what is separating
you, my beloved? Well, you might very well think that it is some outer
condition such as your sins, your karma or your psychology. But these
outer conditions are nothing but symbols, symbols for the fact that
in your own mind, in your own being, you have come to accept conditions.
And so you have come to believe in the lie, the serpentine lie, that
in order to come back to God you have to fulfill certain conditions.
But my beloved, what was it that separated you from God in the first
place? It was conditions! You began to believe that you needed to
fulfill certain conditions in this world in order to be worthy to
enter the kingdom of God, which you had now come to see as being outside
of, separate from, yourself.
So my beloved, you saw
and experienced yesterday** that there is a mountain in Ireland that
primarily is climbed by Catholics who do this as a penance because
they have come to accept the basic belief that in order to be saved
they have to fulfill certain conditions in this world. And the more
painful those conditions are, the more they think they are paying
back their sins.
But my beloved, why did Jesus say that unless you become as little
children ye shall in no wise enter the kingdom? Do little children
have conditions? No! They love unconditionally. And they accept love
unconditionally. They do not have the adult sophistication of the
mind and the intellect to even come up with these conditions. But
they learn quickly by observing their adults around them, from their
parents, to their teachers, to their ministers in church, where they
quickly learn that in order to receive love or whatever else they
need, they need to live up to certain conditions.
And so that makes them susceptible to believing in a religion that
says that if you put yourself through pain by walking up a very steep
mountain with lose rocks, perhaps even doing it barefoot, then somehow
through that pain of yours, the God in heaven is satisfied and will
now forgive you your sins and let you into his kingdom. And yet, my
beloved, the reality is that God will let you into his kingdom any
time you let go of the conditions that you think keep you outside
that kingdom.
And so you see that the more pain they put themselves through, the
more distance they create in their minds between themselves and the
kingdom of God. For they will not truly contemplate and accept the
momentous statement made by Jesus that the kingdom of God is within
you. Did he not say, “The kingdom of God comes not with observation?”
And is walking barefoot up a mountain not observing some outer rule,
some outer concept, of what it takes to enter the kingdom of God?
God accepts you for who you are
You see, my beloved, your Creator, your God, accepts you right now
unconditionally for who you are. And there are two meanings to this
statement. For my beloved, it should be obvious, given the knowledge
that you have – and, certainly, I realize that most of the world
do not have these teachings or do not accept them, but you who accept
these teachings can understand that you were created out of a greater
spiritual being who came out of an even greater spiritual being and
that chain of being reaches all the way back to the Creator.
Perhaps you do not fully internalize and accept this teaching. But
you can understand it – at least intellectually – and
therefore you can understand that when you were created out of the
Creator’s own Being, surely God the Creator accepts himself.
And certainly God the Creator accepts that part of its own Being that
is imparted to you. And so you should be able to understand and accept
that God can have unconditional acceptance for that part of your Being
that truly is an individualization of the Creator.
Yet my beloved, I desire to give you an even deeper teaching, which
I know will require you to stretch the mind and the heart and to watch
your emotions and see the inner reaction. And so I ask you, as I am
speaking these words, to watch your reaction, your thoughts, your
feelings—the conditions that come up in you. For my beloved,
I must tell you that many of you might look at yourselves today and
say, “I can understand that God accepts my God Flame, my I AM
Presence, my divine individuality, but surely I have fallen into a
lower state of consciousness. I have created an ego. I have accepted
conditions. I may have psychological issues. I may have done certain
things in my life. And surely how could God accept this? So how could
God accept the outer personality, the outer sense of identity that
I have created in this world?”
But you see, my beloved,
the reality is that God accepts you for who you are right this moment.
And God’s acceptance of you is unconditional. Watch your reactions.
Watch how your ego will struggle with this statement and come up with
reasons for why this cannot be so. “For if God accepts me for
who I am right now, then why do I have to go through this arduous
path of penance and forgiveness of sin and being saved by some external
savior?”
And my beloved, the truth is, the path that you have to go through
is the path that you have created through the conditions that you
have accepted. And so depending on what kind and how many conditions
you have accepted, there is a path for each one of you to follow.
But here my beloved, is the essential key that so few people have
understood. The path that you have to follow to qualify for your freedom
is NOT fulfilling the outer conditions that you have come to accept.
The path is to let go of those conditions!!! To come to see that they
are unreal, that they are illusions, that they are dualistic illusions
created by the serpentine mind, by the fallen state of consciousness,
by the consciousness of separation and duality.
So you see, my beloved, many of you have already realized this because
you have experienced this in your own lives, that you had to go through
a period of searching or depression or outer difficulties, only to
come to a point where you surrendered, you let go, where you said,
“I don’t need this belief anymore. I don’t need
this vicarious atonement. I don’t need to feel like a sinner.”
And do you see, my beloved, the essential difference between thinking
that in order to be saved you have to fulfill an outer condition,
and so you strive all of your lives to be a good Catholic or a good
Muslim or a good Hindu or a good New Age person or whatever you think
is the outer path. And yet the alternative is to realize that the
real path, the inner path, is to let go of the conditions that are
inside of you instead of trying to fulfill outer conditions, that
only take your attention away from the kingdom of God that is within
you, making you think that you have to enter some external kingdom,
that you need an external savior or an external church or to fulfill
some external conditions.
Do whatever it takes to let go of your conditions
So you see my beloved, sometimes it is indeed necessary for you to
ascend a physical mountain, to realize that you did not need to ascend
the mountain because you can find it all inside yourself. Yet there
is nothing wrong with ascending the mountain in order to come to that
realization. Yet there is nothing wrong with going halfway or not
going at all. You see, whatever you have to do on the outer to be
able to surrender the outer, it is fully acceptable.
But I wish to impart to you – and that I could inspire you to
impart to the world – that the essence of the spiritual path,
the essence of salvation, is precisely to overcome the inner condition
that makes you think you have to fulfill an outer condition. And when
you realize that – when you fully realize it – then you
can let go of the outer conditions. You can be reborn of the Spirit.
For my beloved, did not Jesus say to Nicodemus (John 3:5), that in
order to enter the kingdom a man must be born of water and he must
be born of Spirit. Well my beloved, following an outer path is the
process of being born of water. But when you come to the point of
realizing what I have just explained – that it is not the
outer conditions, but it is letting go of the inner conditions –
well then you can experience the total surrender – the unconditional
surrender – that brings about the rebirth of the Spirit, whereby
you can suddenly accept who you are. And my beloved, when you accept
who you are right now, then you can let go of what is unreal instead
of holding on to it.
For my beloved, do you
understand the very subtle psychological mechanism that comes into
play here? When you accept the serpentine lie that in order to enter
God’s kingdom you have to be acceptable to God – and what
determines whether you are acceptable to God is whether you fulfill
certain outer conditions defined in this world by some institution
or teacher or even by your own ego – you see my beloved, when
you believe that in order to be saved, you have to fulfill these outer
conditions, well the psychological mechanism that comes into play
is that you cannot fully accept that you have these conditions. You
cannot, as Jesus
has said, take ownership of them.
And when you cannot take ownership of them, you cannot surrender them.
For you cannot look at them squarely and say, “But this is unreal.
And I no longer need to carry this with me. I no longer need to accept
this condition or to accept the belief that caused me to accept whatever
illusion I have carried around for a long time.”
So when you think the path is about fulfilling outer conditions it
becomes impossible for you to look at your own imperfections, to look
at your human condition and say, “This is unreal, this has to
go.” Instead, you do what so many people in the world do. They
ignore the beam in their own eye. And either they focus all attention
in the splinter in the eye of another or they focus on the outer path,
saying that if only I give so many Hail Marys and light so many candles
or walk up a mountain barefoot and put myself through this or that
pain, then God will have to accept me even though I have not let go
of the conditions that keep me – in my own mind – outside
the inner kingdom.
So you see, my beloved, when you come to that realization –
that God accepts you for who you are right now – then you can
say, “Well if God can accept me even though I might look at
myself as being an imperfect human being, well then certainly I can
accept myself.” And the reason why you should be able to accept
yourself is precisely this, my beloved, that God has given you free
will. And what that means is that God has given you the right to enter
this world and to create a certain world view based on whatever conditions
you have chosen to accept. And God has set up the universe as a mirror,
to mirror that view back to you, so that you can create for yourself
any experience you desire.
You must choose to let go of your conditions
Do you see, my beloved, that God gave you free will. God has given
you the right to create the experience that you are having right now—because
you have free will. And God accepts that you have a right to create
your present experience. But my beloved, when you realize what the
path is all about, you realize that you can let go of the experience
you have right now at any moment. When you realize that number one,
that it is unreal; and number two, I have had enough of that experience.
I don’t want it anymore. I don’t need it anymore.
And you see, my beloved, when you come to that realization, your path
will take on a new meaning. Your life will change, as some of you
have expressed here because you suddenly realize that all of the outer
conditions are unreal and they cannot keep you outside the kingdom
unless you allow them to do so by continuing to accept them.
And this, my beloved, is precisely what the world wants you to do.
The world wants you to continue to accept these conditions that you
have come to believe and that the world still believes: your family,
your friends, your society, the world at large, your priests. They
want you to accept the conditions that they accept. For if you do
not, you disturb them in their belief that they could not change themselves,
that they don’t have to take responsibility for their own lives
and their own salvation for they can just wait for Jesus to appear
in the sky or wait for some miraculous apparition by Mother Mary or
wait for Saint Patrick to come back in some chariot of fire to lift
up the people.
Do you see, my beloved, that this is why there has always been idolatry
of the saints and the sages who have stood out from the crowd? For
by elevating us, it gives people’s egos an excuse for saying,
“They were special so I cannot do what they did.” But
my beloved, if you will honestly look at my life as Mother Mary, what
was so spectacular that I did in that lifetime? My beloved, I gave
birth to a child. But have not many women done so? Surely, he was
at times a difficult child, but certainly other children have been
a challenge to their parents. Some of you would probably admit that
you challenged your parents in many ways. And some of you feel that
your children have been a great challenge. So why was I so different?
So you see my beloved,
if there was one thing that I would want the world to learn from my
lifetime as Mary, it was, that what was special about me was my willingness
to surrender—to surrender everything. To flow with the inner
prompting that came from my higher Being. Ah, you say, but did I not
have an angel appear to me and tell me what to do? And yes, but how
do you know how that apparition took place? For I can assure you that
it was not the version that Hollywood has come up with in their ever-accelerating
quest to do better than the latest movie and to have more special
effects or more violence.
You see, my beloved, this is again the idolatry of the world that
wants to create these conditions. For you see, my beloved, your ego
is born of conditions. Your ego seriously and truly believes that
it could not survive without conditions. Which is true because the
moment you let go of your conditions, your ego will have no hold over
you. Neither your ego nor the prince of the world will have anything
in you. So your ego does not want you to surrender because the more
conditions you have, the more your ego has control over you and the
more comfortable your ego feels.
So there are many people in the world who have become so identified
with their egos that they are so comfortable in having created this
very neat little box for themselves, where they feel they have everything
under control and their lives are so ritualized, and every morning
they get up and they do the exact same thing. And they go to work
and they come home and they watch the same shows on TV and everything
is ritualized and regimented. And yet if they were thrown into a new
situation, an unexpected situation, they would disintegrate. They
would not be able to handle it.
And so my beloved, you see in your own lives that you have been willing
to come away from your comfortability, even to come to a retreat like
this, or find the spiritual path in whatever form, and allow it to
change your life. And my beloved, the only true difference between
those of us who have ascended and those who have not ascended is that
we were willing to surrender – gradually – all of our
conditions. We were willing to die daily (1Co 15:31), as Paul said,
to have some of our conditions die every day. And we kept doing this
over and over and over again until there suddenly was nothing more
to surrender because we truly had been willing to lose our lives for
the sake of following Christ.
The essence of the spiritual path is surrender
And you see my beloved, certainly it was a big surrender for me to
break off my very comfortable and regimented monastic lifestyle to
suddenly go back into the world and have a child. It was again, a
big adjustment to realize that we had to take that child out of Israel
and flee to Egypt. There were many other adjustments as Jesus grew
up and as he gained a clearer vision of his mission, and I gained
a clearer vision.
Joseph’s death was a big adjustment for me, left with many children.
When Jesus left home at an early age to go on his spiritual pilgrimage—when
he came back. Certainly my beloved, when I stood in front of the cross
watching him struggle and finally watching him give up the ghost of
him giving up the last of his conditions, which inspired me to give
up the conditions I had about how my son’s life and mission
should unfold.
For as Jesus has explained, he had certain illusions until the very
end on the cross. And I too had certain illusions about how his spiritual
mission should unfold. I even had certain illusions that I held on
to after that, until the end of my embodiment when I finally let go
of them all.
And so I simply tell you this, you have already surrendered much to
be where you are right now, whether you are at this conference or
elsewhere. You have surrendered much, my beloved. So is it so difficult
to accept that the path is about one thing—surrender, letting
go of conditions? For my beloved, once you accept this, it becomes
so much easier to surrender the conditions. For you realize that the
more you surrender, the more free you feel inside. And so you build
a momentum, and once you get beyond a certain point, you realize that
surrender is not loss, surrender is not sacrifice, surrender is not
the Via Dolorosa. Surrender is joy. Surrender is freedom. And the
more you let go of, the more free you are.
And so my beloved, this is my gift to you this morning, the gift of
surrender. Should you need help surrendering or gaining a clear vision
of what to surrender – seeing the illusion so you can let it
go – then apply to my heart. Give a rosary if you feel you need
to. Or simply ask me and then listen for my answer. Listen both within
and without. For I will find a way to give you the answer you seek.
If you cannot hear me in your heart, I will send you a book or a person
who will tell you.
Copyright
© 2010 by Kim Michaels |
