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Mother Mary,
April 19, 2009
Mary is my name. The Divine Mother is my office. Yet, I, am MORE.
What is the desire of the Divine Mother for her children? It is to
have them awaken to the reality that they, too, are MORE. For you
were created out of the MORE of God, the desire of God, to be MORE.
Yet how can an almighty, self-sufficient, self-contained, all-pervading,
omnipresent being become MORE? Well, only by creating self-aware extensions
of itself that start from a particular location in cosmic space and
then grow in self-awareness, so that they become more, thus, giving
your Creator the experience of becoming more through you.
And thus, it is inevitable – when you see this journey – that you
start out feeling small. But it is not inevitable that you feel alone.
For you see, my beloved, the sense of aloneness comes from separation,
but the message we are bringing you – again and again from different
perspectives – is that separation is not real, separation is an illusion.
Why separation
is an untruth
My beloved, this messenger once said to another person, “If God is
omnipresent, how can one find a place where God is not?” And the person
was shocked, for having grown up in a traditional Christian culture,
he had been so indoctrinated with the image of the external, remote
God in the sky that his mind could not comprehend what he was told.
Yet, it is reality.
You cannot, my beloved, separate from God. It is, again, the illusion,
the spiritual pride and the arrogance of those who have decided to
rebel against God that they believe that they can set themselves up
in opposition to God and turn the Earth into a place where God is
not present. Or that they can even create a hell where God is not
present. But you see, God is present everywhere and in everything,
through the office of his Son, the Word, or rather the Logos—for without
him was not any thing made that was made.
Thus, my beloved, you may look at yourself right now and see that
you are at a certain state of consciousness, at a certain state of
being somewhat enveloped in material circumstances. Yet, I tell you,
with the pure love of my Mother’s heart, that no matter how you may
look at yourself right now, no matter how you may look at your past
and the mistakes you think you have made, you could not possibly do
anything that would make God or the Divine Mother turn away from you.
You can, of course, use your free will to turn away from God. That
is your right that God has given you. But know that even when you
do turn away from God, God is still experiencing everything you experience
through you.
And so, my point is simply this, that if you desire, my beloved, to
have the experience of being alone, being left by God, feeling rejected
by God, then, as Master MORE explained, you have the right to have
that experience for as long as you want. But you see, if you come
to a point where you desire to no longer have that experience, then
I submit to you that it is possible to instantly switch your perspective
on life and recognize that God is here with you, the Divine Mother
is here with you. And therefore, you do not need to feel alone. You
are never alone, for all life is one.
The only way to be free is to stop running away
And I assure you that when you give up the sense of aloneness, you
will find it so much easier to deal with whatever circumstance you
may be facing, be it external circumstances or the internal circumstances
of your mind. My beloved, what have the masters that have spoken before
me been saying? They have been saying, my beloved, that when you accept
the illusion of separation, out of that illusion springs an image
that is projected upon the Ma-ter light and that will eventually manifest
as some kind of condition in your physical body. But the illusion
of separation is an act of running away, running away from God. And
so, trying to run away from the condition in your body or the consciousness
behind it will not set you free. The only way to be free is to stop
running away, my beloved.
It is, as has been said before by us, that if you keep doing the same
thing and expect different results, well, you are not likely to get
different results, are you now. So there comes a point of truth, a
point of realism, where one must ask oneself, “If I keep doing what
I have always done, is it likely that my life will change?” And so,
as I have inspired this messenger to say to several people, but I
desire to bring it out for a general audience, ask yourself, ask yourself,
“Am I happy in my present state of consciousness and in my present
circumstances?”
My beloved, listen carefully—many of you will instinctively say, “No
I am not happy.” But I ask you to step back and ask this question
at a deeper level. For what we have explained in the previous releases
in this series of discourses is that you have free will—that everything
that you are facing in your life is a result of choices you made.
And because of that, you have the potential to take back your power
and change the choices of the past by making choices that are not
based on separation and duality but choices based on oneness. And
you can, indeed, have, the power, the wisdom, the love—and the acceleration
of the three of them coming together in that intensity of the white
light that propels you beyond your present state of consciousness,
any state of consciousness.
So you, who are the spiritual people, must come to that point, where
you say to yourself, “Am I happy in my present state of mind?” Meaning,
if I have not taken back my power to change my present state of mind,
is it because I actually enjoy torturing or putting myself down? Is
there something in this experience of seeing myself unworthy or feeling
alone that I have not had enough of? And if you honestly recognize
that you have not had enough of that experience, then know that I,
nor any other being in heaven, will not condemn you for it. For we
respect free will absolutely and unconditionally.
You have a right to any experience you desire for as long as you desire
it—within certain boundaries of time and space, of course. For nothing
in time and space can be permanent or last forever. But within very
wide boundaries, you have the right to any experience you desire.
And so if you honestly recognize that you desire to continue with
the experience that you have through your present state of consciousness,
then embrace it, my beloved. Embrace your misery, your sense of unworthiness,
your sense of aloneness, your fear. Embrace it and enjoy it, for this
is what you have chosen to manifest right now.
The gap between where you are and where you want to be in consciousness
And then, if you find, with your self-examination, that “I am not
happy in my present state of mind,” then you have another consideration
to make. You see, my beloved, it is possible – because you have not
been given the correct understanding of who you are and of free will
– it is possible to be in a twilight zone, in a no-man’s land, and
this is what other masters have attempted to explain before me.
[This is] the catch-22, where there is a part of you that wants to
change, but yet you cannot change. There is something holding you
back, something that prevents you from fully changing. And you might
look at spiritual movements and see so many people who have been walking
a spiritual path for many years, my beloved. They have studied teachings,
they have practiced techniques, they have sought healing. They have
attempted in many different ways to change their life experience,
their state of consciousness.
Yet you will see so many people who have gone through the first three
rays, to some degree taking back their power, for you cannot be in
a spiritual movement or on the spiritual path without realizing that
you have to do something. They have also spent countless hours studying
spiritual teachings, and thereby [they have] increased their understanding.
They have even had so-called peak experiences of experiencing a higher
state of consciousness, perhaps even unconditional love in glimpses.
They might even have put the three together and accelerated themselves
beyond the level of consciousness they had 1, 10, 20 or 30 years ago.
Yet, there is still a gap between where they are and where they want
to be. They are not happy, they are not at peace in their present
state of consciousness. They are not, as the saying goes, walking
their talk. They can talk a good game of spiritual theory, but when
it comes to applying it in their practical, everyday life, there is
a gap. And so you see, what I endeavor to start with this release
is then the Omega aspect of this crash course in the restoration of
true healing.
Knowing about the figure-eight flow
And so, I ask you to visualize that on the wall behind this messenger
is drawn a figure-eight and you are looking straight at it. So what
I give you is seen from your perspective, not from the perspective
of the messenger facing the other way.
So now visualize this figure-eight in front of you and realize that
the lower figure represents the material world, whereas the upper
figure represents the spiritual. In personal terms the upper figure
is your I AM Presence and Higher Being. Even the Higher Beings out
of which you came, reaching all the way to the Creator, which we might
represent as a point at the very top of the figure-eight. Although,
of course, the Creator needs no real representation, for by creating
a representation, we might cause some to reinforce the image of the
external creator. Nevertheless, for the purpose of this linear illustration,
let us simply make it so.
And then look at the opposite point at the very bottom of the figure-eight.
That is where you are in consciousness when you awaken and begin your
spiritual path. This may not have happened in this lifetime, or it
may have happened by you having an experience in this lifetime, where
you felt that your life had turned around and you realized that you
had to change something in your life. For some it may come as a hit-rock-bottom
experience, where they feel they cannot possibly go any lower, they
cannot possibly continue doing what they have been doing.
But for many of you, you have already had that experience in past
lives, and you came into this lifetime knowing that there was something
you had to find. And you were looking and searching for what it was,
and there then came a point where you became consciously aware of
the spiritual side of life and the potential to actively raise your
consciousness by your own efforts, so to speak, of being willing to
go through the initiations of the first four rays, as described previously.
And so, now visualize that you start at that very bottom point, of
the lower point of the figure-eight flow. That is the point where
you consciously start walking the path. And at that point, you start
with the initiations of the first ray because it is not enough to
realize that you can take a step—you have to summon the will to take
a step. So, you have already summoned some of that will, or you would
not be where you are today, where you can even find and receive this
message. So then, you go through the initiations of the first ray
of power and will, and you climb up the left side of the figure-eight,
the lower figure of the figure-eight, going in a clockwise direction,
as if the lower figure was a circle.
And so, you come to a certain point of having passed enough of the
initiations of the first ray that you can move on and begin to internalize
more knowledge, more understanding, more wisdom. And you study, and
you study, and you study. And after you have internalized and climbed
to a higher point on that circle, well then you come to the third
ray of love and you receive some experience of something beyond your
normal state of consciousness. It may not be the full unconditional
love of God – although it is certainly possible to have that experience
– but there is some love. And then you have climbed to the point,
where you are now approaching the nexus of the figure-eight.
And the nexus, of course, is the point of the Christ, my beloved.
And what is, for the purpose of this discussion of personal healing,
what is that point of Christhood? It is the point that Serapis spoke
about, where you decide that you can take what you have gained through
the first three rays, put the blue, the yellow and the pink together
– having attained some measure of that balance of what has been called
the threefold flame of the heart – and blend the three together to
the intensity and the purity of the white light, and then use that
white light to consciously and deliberately accelerate your state
of consciousness to a certain level.
You are crucified in matter
In a sense, my beloved, what did Jesus demonstrate by coming into
embodiment and letting himself be crucified? What did Jesus mean when
he said, “Before Abraham was, I AM?” Certainly, the physical body
of Jesus could not be older than Abraham—that makes no logical sense
whatsoever. And so, there must be a hidden meaning, which of course,
you cannot divine by taking the Bible literally—as it was never meant
to be taken literally. So, the reality of it is that many of the statements
made by Jesus were not made by a particular individual being embodied
at a particular time in time and space. It was made by the Logos,
by the Word, by the universal cosmic Christ consciousness speaking
through him.
And what was meant to be illustrated here is that the Christ has been
crucified in matter by allowing people to project whatever images
upon that Logos, so that they could be out-pictured by the Ma-ter
light as physical form. You see, then, that even though I have said
earlier that everything is made out of the Ma-ter light, there is
a deeper understanding that the Ma-ter light springs from the Logos
of the Christ consciousness. And so, that is why the Christ consciousness,
of course, is everywhere. For everything that is made out of the Christ
consciousness has the Christ consciousness embedded within it.
But the Christ consciousness is not necessarily expressed in form.
It lies dormant, for it has been crucified by the lower images, the
images projected by those who have decided to leave the oneness of
the Christ consciousness, go into the illusion of separation and duality,
create images from that state of consciousness and project it onto
matter—which then is why the Christ is crucified. And [this is why]
Jesus came to demonstrate that even though the Christ will allow itself
to be crucified, you cannot limit or confine the Christ. For even
though the Christ is crucified in matter, the Christ knows that it
is MORE, that it is One, that it has the potential to be resurrected
and ascend.
How do you personally, my beloved, come up higher? By following the
example of Jesus, the embodied man, who was crucified, who fulfilled
a mission and who gave up the ghost. What is the message, though,
for humankind as a whole? It is that Jesus, as you see out-pictured
in the outer stations of the cross, Jesus was condemned to death by
the consciousness of death, the consciousness of separation and duality.
Jesus accepted that cross and then Jesus was nailed to the cross,
gave up the ghost, moved on.
But then comes the significance of Jesus being taken down from the
cross. For you see, it is the choices of self-aware beings – humankind
– that has nailed the Christ to the cross of matter, and the Christ
cannot take itself down, for the Christ is only hanging on the cross
in the minds of people in duality.
You see the message here? You may think, my beloved, that human beings
had the power to nail Jesus to the cross, and they did have the power
to nail the outer person, but they could not nail the Christ consciousness
to the cross in the sense that the Christ consciousness is the same
yesterday, today and forever—and is therefore not changed in its self-awareness,
self-image, by anything that happens or is done to it. So it is only
in the minds of the people, and therefore – in reality – when they
nail Christ to the cross, they are nailing themselves to the cross,
my beloved.
Do you see? Do onto others what you want others to do to you. The
deeper meaning being that what you do onto others, you have already
done to yourself. And in order to be able to nail Jesus to the cross,
humankind must first have nailed themselves to the cross, and thus
the Mother and her children are indeed nailed to the cross. But only
in the minds of the children, for the Mother always knows who she
is.
Why can’t people close the gap?
And so, my beloved, why is it that so many people in spiritual and
religious movements can have the will to change – can have the wisdom
of spiritual concepts and may even see how they need to change, can
have had an experience of unconditional love, of a higher state of
consciousness that is possible, can even have gone through the acceleration
of raising their consciousness – yet there is still a gap? There is
still a gap that they cannot close—they cannot come to that sense
of inner peace, for they cannot embrace whatever situation they face
and stop running away, stop seeing that gap, and fully be in the moment,
whatever the moment might bring. Why is that, my beloved?
Well, it is because after you pass the initiations of the first four
rays, you have entered that point of the nexus of the figure-eight,
and now you face an entirely new kind of initiation, my beloved, that
very few people have understood. So listen, attentively.
Look at the mindset, when you realize you are at the bottom of the
figure-eight and you want to rise higher. You gradually expand your
vision that there is a spiritual realm beyond the material. And you
build your desire to come into oneness with that Spirit, to reach
up. And because you have had the images of the external God in the
sky, you might build the subtle sense that you have to raise your
consciousness into the spiritual realm.
You might take on the subtle lie that the material world is an enemy
of your spiritual growth, and that you need to escape the material
world and ascend into the spiritual realm. And so, you might think
that as you climb that lower figure of the figure-eight and reach
the nexus, that is the point where you are free. Now you can go into
the upper figure of the figure-eight and continue the initiations
there.
And then, so many people think that what they have done on the spiritual
path, on the first four rays, they simply need to continue that mindset
and that thrust, and that will carry them on to the fifth, the sixth
and the seventh ray and beyond. And so they think they have to continue
in that direction, to continue to do what they have been doing.
And this, my beloved, is a fundamental error, a fundamental misunderstanding.
I use strong words because I want to shock you into realizing that
if you truly want to close the gap between where you are and where
you want to be, you need to change your mindset, for it is the mindset
that sustains the gap, irregardless of the fact that you have made
much progress on the path so far.
You cannot go beyond the fourth ray by using the mindset that helped
you climb the lower figure of the figure-eight to the nexus point.
This is what Jesus describes in his book on personal
Christhood. But I desire to give you a different perspective as
well. For you see, what will it take to experience true healing, my
beloved? You cannot become whole, you cannot become healed, by will
power alone, by wisdom alone, by love alone, or by purity alone.
Surrender is the only way
Why not? Because as you climb that lower figure of the figure-eight,
you are carrying with you the separate self. And as some of you have
come to realize and see clearly out-pictured in your own minds, it
is inevitable that as you increase your understanding of spiritual
concepts, your ego will not simply die. It will morph itself into
a form that for a time will make you believe that the ego can actually
be perfected and become acceptable to God.
In other words, it is possible to use a spiritual teaching and spiritual
practices to perfect the separate self, so that it lives up to some
condition that will make it acceptable in the eyes of God and therefore
gain it entry into the kingdom. This is what Jesus illustrated in
his parable about the wedding feast, where all are invited, but if
you come in without a wedding garment, then you cannot stay.
You will not actually be cast into outer darkness by any external
force, but the reality is that there is still a remnant of the separate
self, and it will pull you out of the wedding feast—and that is what
creates the gap that you seemingly cannot cross. You are trying to
fit the square peg of the separate self into the round hole that leads
to heaven. You are trying to carry that luggage with you through the
narrow door into the train that simply will not fit. And so you have
to decide that if you want to get on the train, you have to leave
your luggage behind and give up the ghost.
How do you, then, give up the ghost? This is the question you need
to ponder. You cannot give up the ghost by seeking to perfect the
ghost.
Thus, the only way is the path of surrender. Surrender, my beloved,
may sound like a strange concept, for you have grown up in a culture
on this planet that is infused with the consciousness of competition
and war. What does the word surrender mean in war? Well, it means
that you give up and you are defeated. What does surrender mean in
competition? That you give up winning and therefore you lose.
But do you see, my beloved, that the concept of win or lose is dualistic,
indeed? One must lose in order for another to win. Where is the true
victory in that? And so, surrender in a spiritual sense is not, my
beloved, a passive act of giving up. It is an active process of giving
up the ghost. Giving UP, not giving up. You give UP the ghost to a
higher vision, for you are willing to give UP the separate self in
order to become more whole.
You are willing to give UP a part of that separate self in order to
experience more wholeness. You are willing to give up one dollar to
receive a million in return. And thus, there is no loss in true surrender.
There is only freedom. This is what many of you have not fully locked
in to in your minds.
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Completing the circle of initiation
Do you see that when one starts at the bottom of the figure-eight,
one clearly sees that there is a gap between where I am, and where
the kingdom of God is, so you have to create a thrust, my beloved,
in order to rise above the gravitational pull of the mass consciousness,
as Serapis illustrated with his analogy of the rocket. There has to
be momentum, you have to create a force, and you have to do it partly
with the state of consciousness you are in at the time. Which means
that your separate self, your ego, will be involved.
And therefore, the ego will color your efforts to some degree by its
desire for self-elevation and for feeling important. And that is why
you respond to spiritual teachings that tell you that you have an
important mission to save the world for Saint Germain and bring the
Golden Age, and do all of these outer things. And so you think that
you actively have to be part of this, you have to create some kind
of force or thrust that makes it manifest. And this is correct, through
the initiations of the first four rays. But you will not get beyond
that point until you realize that what has carried you to this point,
my beloved, will not carry you further, it will weigh you down.
Look at a rocket again that has several stages. First it has a very
large booster that is meant only to accelerate it to a certain point,
and then the fuel in that booster is burned out. And it must now be
separated from the rocket and it falls away and the rocket starts
another engine that takes it beyond to orbit. Do you see, my beloved,
that if you insist on holding on to the mindset that boosted you through
the first four rays, you cannot progress, you are stuck in a no-man’s
land? [You are] feeling that you want to change, that you have to
change, you see a glimpse of what has to change, but you cannot internalize
it, you cannot bring it into your consciousness.
And thus, the illustration that I want to give you here is that when
you come to the nexus point of the figure-eight, you have the potential
to attain a new perspective, the perspective of the Christ mind, the
mind of oneness rather than the mind of separation. And when you attain
that perspective of the Christ mind, you see clearly that the path
forward does not go into the upper figure of the figure-eight. No,
it goes out from the nexus point and down on the right side of the
figure-eight, where you now begin to descend again.
And why does it seem like – in order to rise higher on the spiritual
path – you have to start descending? Well, it is because what you
have done so far is to take a part of your consciousness and thrust
it beyond the mass consciousness, but there is still a part of you
left, and that is why you feel a gap, that is why you are not quite
there, you are not quite together, you are not quite whole.
And so, you must use the higher thrust and insight and perspective
you have gained with a part of your mind, to go down again and rescue,
so to speak, all other parts of your being, all other fragments of
your soul, if you want to call them that. But even beyond that, you
must come to recognize that you are one cell in the Body of God and
that your job is not just to resurrect that one cell that you are,
but to resurrect the entire body.
And so, in order to rise higher personally, you must begin to share
and give out what you have gained, by then seeking to go out into
the market place and reach other people, as Jesus demonstrated, by
going into the market place of life, giving people what they needed,
whether it was a higher spiritual teaching, whether it was healing,
whether it was a cup of cold water in Christ’s name, a listening ear.
You all have qualities that you are aware of, or can quickly become
aware of, that can help other people. Some of you have expressed it,
all of you have it. All of you have already used those qualities,
but you need to come to the point where you are willing to use them
more consciously. Not for your own personal growth, but for the selfless
service of raising other parts of life. For it is in that service
that you are healed.
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© 2010 by Kim Michaels |
