| Answer
from Jesus:
It is difficult to give
a general answer to a question like this. The reason being that there
are so many individual factors at play. In other words, there can be
several reasons a soul is exposed to severe abuse, and there are many
different scenarios for how such abuse affects the soul. So in the following
answer I will focus on the type of souls who are most likely to study
this website.
As you will see from my discourse on the stages
of spiritual development, the people on this planet are at several
levels of consciousness. The type of souls who are likely to be attracted
to this website are people who have reached a more advanced level of
soul maturity and are on the path to personal Christhood. These are
precisely the type of souls that are a threat to the dark forces who
are working against God’s vision for humankind as a whole and
for individual souls. In other words, when you begin to manifest your
personal Christhood, you will become a target for the dark forces. They
will do anything in their power to prevent you from manifesting and
expressing that Christhood while you are here on Earth.
One of the plots used by such dark forces is to create the greatest
possible amount of chaos in your childhood, so that your life's mission
is distorted or even aborted at the outset. In their attempts to do
this, dark forces will seek to take over weak-minded individuals around
you and use them to expose you to severe abuse. Obviously, I am not
saying that all people who are abused are on the path to Christhood
or that every soul who manifests a degree of Christhood will necessarily
be abused. What I am saying is that if you have been abused as a child,
and if you are open to the teachings on this website, you should consider
yourself to be an advanced soul, and you should consider that the abuse
you experienced was a direct attack against your soul, precipitated
by dark forces.
Based on this recognition, I would hope you would reach the conclusion
that you cannot allow anything that happened to you in this world to
stand in the way of the goal of manifesting your Christhood and fulfilling
your spiritual mission for this lifetime. Therefore, I would hope people
would make the decision to pursue any avenue possible in order to heal
the wounds they received in childhood, and leave them permanently behind,
so that they can get on with their mission and Christhood.
If you will make this decision and if you will follow through by taking
advantage of all avenues of healing, you will find that there will be
an extraordinary help and support from above. Contrary to what you might
have been taught as you were growing up, or what you might have concluded
as a result of the abuse, you are not alone. You have a Christ self
and you have angels and ascended beings assigned to help your lifestream
overcome all obstacles and manifest your Christhood. If you will call
to us with an open mind, you will receive the help and guidance you
need in order to take the next step toward healing.
The first practical step you need to take to put childhood abuse (or
any type of abuse) behind you is to recognize the fact that the abuse
was an attack on your soul by dark forces. This should make it obvious
that you need to make a very determined effort to establish or reestablish
your spiritual protection. This involves making diligent use of appropriate
techniques for spiritual protection, and I give several
such techniques on this website. If you will make use of these techniques,
you will gradually establish a wall of light around your energy field,
and this will make you less vulnerable to negative thoughts or energies
projected at you from dark forces. However, you should also call specifically
for Archangel Michael to bind and consume all dark forces who have invaded
your energy field and your soul. For more details, see my answer to
a question on how to overcome addiction.
The next practical step you can take is to recognize that when you are
exposed to severe trauma and abuse, especially when it happens in childhood,
it is virtually inevitable that your soul will become fragmented. I
have given detailed teachings on this in the answers to several questions
in this section. I recommend that you study these answers.
You can do a number of things on your own to heal a fragmented soul,
including Mother Mary's East-West
Rosary, calls to the Violet
Flame and other spiritual exercises. It will also be a great help
to study both the teachings on this website and other books on spirituality
and psychology. You can also find techniques for healing the soul or
the inner child that can be helpful. Yet in the end it will be highly
beneficial for people who have endured severe abuse to enter some form
of therapy with a trained professional. Seek to find a therapist who
is open to the spiritual side of life without going too far into some
of the extremes you find in the New Age field. In other words, the key
to manifesting Christhood is to attain balance and the key to healing
your soul is to find a balanced form of therapy, which requires a balanced
therapist.
I would also strongly recommend that you contemplate the possibility
that your soul might have chosen to embody in a situation where there
was a high probability of abuse. There are several reasons your soul
might have made this choice. One is that your soul wanted to learn a
specific lesson that would help you resolve something in your psychology.
If this is the case, it is extremely important that you discover what
that lesson is and fully integrate the lesson into your being. One potential
reason is that your soul wanted to learn the lesson that it cannot rely
on anything or anybody outside of itself but that it must go within
and establish the contact to its Christ self.
Another reason for choosing a difficult childhood is that you are a
mature soul who wants to help other souls. You chose to do this by experiencing
a very difficult situation yourself, so that you know what it feels
like and can therefore be more effective in helping others overcome
the negative effects of abuse.
Finally, your soul might have chosen a situation that could lead to
abuse because you wanted to bring the judgment upon certain souls that
have committed abuses in the past. In that case, you should consider
it your right and your obligation to call forth God’s
judgment upon the soul, or souls, who abused you and all the dark
forces working through them. This is indeed one of the reasons I allowed
myself to be crucified because in committing this abuse against a person
with full Christhood, these souls, and the forces working through them,
brought about their own judgment. Although the very act of abuse is
a judgment, it is still beneficial to call forth the judgment.
Another very important step is to work on enveloping the entire situation
in the flame of forgiveness. Mother Mary’s Forgiveness
Rosary is an extremely powerful tool for doing this. Her discourse
on forgiveness is also extremely important because only when you
can fully forgive those who abused you will you be able to leave the
abuse behind.
It is also extremely important that you forgive yourself for your reaction
to the abuse or anything you might have done as a result of the abuse.
As a child, most people tend to think that the world revolves around
them, meaning that if something bad happens to them, they must have
done something to cause it. This makes many children accept a false
sense of responsibility for the actions of the adults around them. In
reality, the child was not responsible for the actions of the adults;
the adults were acting out their own unresolved psychology, and they
were likely influenced or controlled by dark forces as a result of those
psychological weaknesses.
An unfortunate effect of the Christian doctrine about sin is that many
children feel that if they were abused, they must have committed a sin
that made them deserve this abuse, and this might mean that they are
bad people. It is extremely important for you to completely overcome
such negative feelings about yourself, and you can do so only by fully
forgiving yourself, not so much for the abuse as for your reaction to
the abuse or any actions, such as an attempt to dull the pain with alcohol
or drugs, that followed the abuse.
Mother Mary’s discourse also explains how the dark forces try
to trap you in a limited self image that makes you feel you could never
again be worthy to come home to God. The most unfortunate effect of
severe abuse is that a child can feel that it has been so violated by
the abuse that it could never again be worthy to face God. As Mother
Mary explains, this is the ultimate lie used by dark forces, and it
is extremely important that you see through this lie, accept it as a
lie and consciously choose not to believe in this lie. As Mother Mary
says, there is nothing that could possibly have happened to you in this
world that you cannot overcome and leave behind.
You talk about taking back dominion of your will and your I AM Presence.
Let me first say that your soul never had dominion over your I AM Presence,
and it is not meant to have such dominion. When your soul is connected
to your I AM Presence, your Presence has dominion over your soul. That
is why I said, “I of my own self (meaning the soul) can do nothing;
it is the Father (meaning the I AM Presence) within me who is doing
the work.” So you need to let your Presence take back dominion
over your soul, and you do that by healing your soul and reestablishing
the connection to your Christ self and through that to your I AM Presence.
I realize that when a soul has been deeply wounded, it can be very painful
to think about the entire situation surrounding the abuse. It can therefore
be very difficult for such a soul to realize and acknowledge the truth
in Mother Mary's teachings that nobody ever did anything to you. What
she is really saying is that although someone abused you as a child,
what caused your soul to be hurt was not the outer act of abuse but
your reaction to it. This might be difficult to accept until you soul
has been somewhat healed.
When your soul has been abused, it is almost inevitable that the soul
will have fractured and that some of the fragments have become separated
from your soul. This leaves empty spaces within the structure of your
soul, and those empty spaces can be filled in by impure energies or
even by conscious beings that seek to control your soul.
Because there is not enough soul substance left after the abuse and
because of outside forces manipulating your soul, it can feel as if
your will was taken away from you. The reason being that the soul substance
that is left might not be strong enough to take dominion over the structure
of your soul. Yet as you begin to put on spiritual protection, and
as you begin to heal your soul, you will magnetize some of the lost
soul fragments back to you and you will expel the foreign energies and
beings. This will then gradually build a critical mass, and you will
eventually reach a point of greater wholeness where you can take back
dominion over your conscious will.
However, I must make it clear that this is not an automatic process.
The brutal fact is that no force in this world can take away your will.
What can happen is that the forces of this world expose you to such
severe trauma and abuse that your soul is in such turmoil that it can
voluntarily give away its will. The soul can feel it has made such a
severe mistake or that its situation is so chaotic that it could not
possibly do anything on its own to resolve the situation. Therefore,
the soul can voluntarily give up its will.
My point here is that as you begin the process of healing, there will
come a point where you have magnetized enough soul fragments that you
are able to take back your will. Yet taking back your will must be a
conscious decision. You can take back your will only through an act
of will. You gave it away through an act of will, and you must take
it back the same way.
There are serpentine lies designed to make you believe that if only
you engage in a certain outer ritual, you will automatically be healed.
The outer ritual of healing can indeed help you heal your soul. But
in the end you must consciously take back your will by making the decision
to accept full accountability for your own situation.
Please understand that I fully realize how difficult it can be for a
person who has been severely abused, or who has been exposed to other
forms of trauma, to feel any kind of personal responsibility for the
situation. I am not asking you to feel accountable for what other people
did to you. Nor am I asking you to feel that you must be a bad person
to have such things happen to you. I am asking you to accept accountability
for your reaction to the situation, so that you accept the fact that
what hurt your soul was the decisions you made - the false self image
you accepted - while the abuse was taking place or afterwards. I am
then asking you to accept the fact that those decisions were the best
possible decisions you could have made at the time, given your state
of consciousness and soul maturity. This should be especially obvious
concerning abuse that happened during childhood, but it truly applies
to everyone.
I am then asking you to accept that because you have now reached a higher
level of soul maturity, you could have made better decisions today than
you made back then. When you come to this recognition, you can then
allow yourself to re-experience the situation and replace the original
decision with a better decision. I recognize that this can be painful,
but if you go through the steps of healing your soul and establishing
spiritual protection, the pain will be much less intense.
What I am saying is that in the end the damage that was done to your
soul was done through decisions you made, and therefore the only way
that damage can be permanently undone is by you making better decisions
that replace the old choices. Once again, the help of an experienced
therapist can be invaluable in terms of helping your soul go through
the difficult process of facing its past decisions and replacing them
with better ones.
I also realize it might take a long time to fully heal the effects of
childhood abuse. Yet I can assure you that no matter what might have
happened to you, it is possible to leave it all behind and manifest
your personal Christhood. I can also promise you that by making the
effort to seek healing, you will reap a reward that will make it all
worth it. Once you are free from such past trauma, you will feel spiritually
reborn, and you can then begin to express your Christhood and fulfill
your divine plan.
Incidentally, your mission in life might be to help other victims of
abuse and show them how to be healed. Or it might be to increase awareness
about abuse and help society put an end to it—which must include
a greater understanding of the spiritual causes of abuse.
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